2007-01-24
Somewhere Along the Way, I Became Superwoman
But honestly, at the start of the year, I truly thought I was. Superwoman.
The collective weight of Dramafeste, KI proposals (which the tutor KEEPS making me rewrite), evil math tutors (arguably evil only because a ton of my tutorials remain untouched), AEP coursework, my last debate competition, and strained relationships have left me somewhat numb.
It's like carrying one of those supersupersuper heavy primary school student's bags and having the shoulder straps cut in so deep you almost no longer feel it.
On the bright side, the people around me - particularly Sixoh (seniors and juniors alike) having been giving me a lot of tender lovin' care, rubbing my torn shoulders and plastering up my boxed-in nose. It's funny how these people (Sixoh) - the very ones bound to me only by sheer circumstance, the ones I was most aware would not last beyond graduation, should be the ones who mean the most to me in these times of hell. I don't want to think of how they'll all disappear with the college days in time to come.
And the ones whom I thought I could spend eternity with, thought I was but a speck in their universe.
I wish I could be superwoman. Because the burden of being a speck is so heavy. So heavy.
nothing ever happens at 11:28 p.m.